When you view porn as a way to avoid shame, when you stop being porn, you won't be distracted from all of those negative thoughts that you have about yourself. This is what in my program, we call this the river of misery. It's like in order to get from where you are to where you want to be, you have to go through this river of misery and why it's so miserable is because all of your crap comes up. Letting all of that come up and seeing all of that stuff that you've been buffering from is one of the most loving things that you could ever do for yourself.