Is Struggling a Form of a Weakness?

I've never actually, i mean, im in my twenties, and i recently, a, came back from a very liberal university in a very politically devisive am province. You just wake up and you're just kind of like, sometimes you're a little bit more to the left, sometimes a bit more right. But more extreme poles, or you're just constantly, i can't relate. Yes, striving is a form of a weakness, intellectually and moral. So, yes, no, i cannot relate. Im a my my. It's not that i swap left and right. Iam, very consistent in my views. And then i i know who i am, but who