I've a Ten Year Old or Tertiary Function and I Feel Dirty

I find that it feels dirty when i'm in conflict with somebody and i haven't resolved the conflict, that's what i call dirty. I express emotions much, much, much clearer than i do feel them or experience them internally. When i have a bunch of unprocessed emotions inside of me, i absolutely make that the rest of the world's problem. And so i see other people in a much harsher negative light, because i've got a bunch of my own stuff bottle necking inside of me. It very much feels like i'm looking at it through cook bottle lenses.