i wonder how much of it's hard for you to trust other people actually, because you're ad that, like, if you cross a particular line with them, you'll lose control and then you'll be subjecting them to all the crap. You don't want to do that to them,. which is where i say, gently, fuckem. Let hem have it its. Is just like this thing. My whole life i felt like a burden to my family. That like, i feel like i'm a burden to people, yes. And only one insolved. Go for it. I want to get there anyoy."