How Many Times After Your First Show Did You Experience a Disaster?

I got anxiety every time I went on stage for like the first eight months probably. It's brutal because I don't breathe. So I just blow through the material. You can see just how nervous I am. After I got off stage, I was like, Nope, this is where my heart belongs in comedy. And then you get up and you have a crowd that's just not into you. Yeah. It takes a lot to get through that.