What About Your Relationship With Heavenly Father?

I never looked at anti mormon doctrine. Because if you do that, then you get sucked in. And so hat something you just never looked at. You just continued studying and pursuing what, you know, i've always had a very strong relationship with god. That taas my very, very strong identity as that. It's not even questioned. The em that first relationship that you said that you had to kind of stop, what? How old are you? 15?