Shostakovich's Inner Turbulence

The El Maratheme returns distant aloof and cold again. The opening theme and the DSCH theme simply limp out of the frame. To see that this is one of the ways that Shostakovich saw himself as an incredible clue into the inner turmoil he must have felt. Well that's quite a rejection. That is actually the only moment where the ElMaratheme changes in volume to that loud and majestic forte or loud dynamic. How does Shostakvich react to this? well you heard momentarily that kind of tantrum but just as quickly the El Marathe me returns distant aloft and cold again while the opening theme andthe DSCH theme merely limp out of it