The Wound of Julian's Relationship With Her Son

She did have a moment of cracking I'm not sure how much earlier a few years earlier where her older son who used to swim and doesn't want anything to do with the pool anymore. They have kind of an incident where she's kind of pushing him to race in a certain way that is really uncalled for. She has a lot of shame about that and it really revealed who she was. It follows her around and so she is aware of oh my goodness I can be haunted by this man and take on some of his alcoholicish ways if I'm not careful did you know?