When I was 18. And you were getting kind of like assaulted?

I didn't get a, I mean verbally. Yeah. I told the story to a writer at the 20th anniversary doing comedians during 9-11. Oh, right. Yeah. Yeah. And I told him the story about it. Some guy called me a sand and word. Yeah. On while I was on stage. Where? At the ha ha. Over in the valley. Yeah. In the valley. Yeah. And it scared, scared me because it was like, that was the feeling. You were a kid. Yeah. And I didn't know what to do. And I just like, it made me just sort of like freeze up on stage. And a lesson it taught me was like, I'm never allowing that to happen again on stage ever. Without responding? I will destroy a show if I have to. Because no one's going to get the best of me ever again.

Really? Yeah.

It broke you, huh? It broke me in a giant and reformed me as a, you know, a new work. Yes. Your origin story. Your superhero moment. Yeah. I mean, it kind of was. It didn't make me good all of a sudden, but it made me a lot more fearless because the reason I got into it was to, I was like, I need to find a place to be a person to be. I need to like identify myself as an adult. And I always wanted to do stand up. And I was like, I'm going to get into that because I love it. I think it could be good at it. Yeah. And it's going to make me a person and almost right away, some guy in the crowd's like, you're not a person. You're not one of us. Get out. And I was like, so it just. Oh, wow. And that was my whole upbringing with that. But you were

that, you were that aware of it. Yeah. Because I mean, I think I got in the stand up for, for similar reasons. Yeah. And I wasn't to entertain people. But I think for some reason I decided that's where I need to pull myself together is up there. What age did you start? I guess I was like, let's see. I was probably 22 or 23. I mean, I came out here. I was 22 maybe. Okay. But I always wanted to do it. And I went to college and shit. Yeah. But that didn't quite. I was still scrambling for some sort of sense of self. And I always wanted to do stand up. And I don't know. I don't know why I chose that. Because I thought there was like your truth teller. I had a romantic idea of it. I wasn't. I never thought of myself as a song and dance man.

I mean, I didn't either really. I just thought like I, the first kind of positive attention I ever got was when I would be funny or silly or weird. When did that start? Probably like third or fourth grade, I remember just making like a girl laugh kind of giggle. And then I went like I went so like head over heels in love that I went

and got her flowers.