The Importance of Masculinity in Prison

I was aware that with my own father in regards to those same experiences I was sort of holding my breath so as not to inhale and he taught you an aggressive word to use your to your mother we won't repeat it on here but then sure yeah. Yeah lots of you know the contradictions of chivalry and all that rubbish. So part of this executioner figure that I have is a sort of over exaggerated super ego or an over exaggerated sense of conscience which well it has stopped me from inheriting the worst aspects of masculinity it hasn't quite made me free yet.