I Want to Cry, I Want to Cry

There is an episode of The Last of Us that was so incredibly out of the blue and touching that I broke down like six or seven times during it. If I see something that affects me on something that's very personal, like attaches to one of my personal fears or whatever, I will watch more content that's like that. But I also feel kind of conflicted about that because I don't like doing that with like real things. Watching other people's actual real life, like tragedies or whatever, for my own emotional gratification always makes me feel really dirty.