i wonder if i ever felt any sort of pride in my life at all. I don't know if it's anything like pride, but whenever that comes to mind,. All i can think about the times where i was part of something that i had to do with a whole group of people  that i had to get to know. Like there was a time when i was at baseball, and i wasin junior leaks for that, and i just felt so alive whenever i was just with my team maids.