i am an atheist, and i'm not a particularly spiritual person. A lot of that came into question after my mam died. After she passed away, i began to live a very charmed and successful life as an artist about ta with work that i made about her. And it is very, there is a part of me that really believes that she is responsible for that, that she, like, looks out for me in that way. It goes against everything that i would, how i would define my spirituality. But i have allow space for that. Ah, because, a, i don't know, it just makes me feel better. And, a, and i think that