Are You Trying Really Hard to Get Out of This Situation?

i no longer have the mental spark that i used to feel when i would get motivated about anything any more. Even if i start, i can't stay consistent because  it feels like i'm starting just so i can like, fail again. And it is not like i have not achieved significant things before,. But after so many cycles of just overcompensating for my issues, that lik seem like a d d and p t s d.