The Abandonment of an Optimism Is Just a Joke - I Don't Think It Is

I am laughing as partially a defense mechanism, and partially because i want it to sound like john's making a joke. Because i don't want people to to be sucked into his hole of nialism. And the abandonment of an optimism is, in fact, just a little joke john's making. Some of it is an extremely dry joke, because i really do believe, as one of my cor, like, really my only cor belief,. I'm always trying to lean against it. I always feel it closing in on me. So i think part of why hank laps, honestly, is that he's been hearing me, me say this, and struggle with it since he was