What Is My Purpose?

I'm drawn to kind of do nothing until i know, and then arise up and then go in that sense where i don't trust even what's happening. Jesus says you can ask that with any situation. You can safely ask, what is this for? With anything. We're not really forced, were not caused by the world. But we do need to take that pause sometimes and just go, how does this really feel deep down inside? Is this taking me towards eternity? Or is this winding me into the labyrinth, into the maze a little bit tighter? So that's, that's a question of purpose.