Is It Possible to Study or Not to Study?

i was brought to my house when i was six, and then i have a very trebles childhood with lots of control. My motherill wake me in the middle of the night, if i sleep, not, in order to make my bed straight. So i'm very disciplinated to lots of kind of work habits. And e i start painting, i paint. Had my first show when i was 14,. I was jealous of mosert, because he started seven, and i think my life was already wasted. Then i finishd art academy. And er, i didn't like to paint any more. Id like to experiment. I start with sound instellations. While the first