What Are You Thinking When You Find Out That Thet Hehad Died?

I was in a state of shock er, just utter disbelief. And life almost just felt like it was on pause. But i also realized that because i was in such shock er, i dnt actually realize i did care about what i was,. So i had, like, some would say, it's almost like self pity, but t was like a real suddenness that i'd now let everybody down. I just assume that i'd destroyed my life a tham at that moment. Then after that, cause i'm in this little, finy, little, please custod you self, i was just like, ton into like, anxiety bikesak."