i'm not allowed to relax until i have achieved certain things. It's always about, have i done enough? Have i done rything that can be done? And the reason i mentione retirement is because it the more realistic of the two. I think they're both like so do you see how there's like a shared emotional need,. i'm going to call it emotional, let's just step away from that word. Actually, there's a shared need between those two goals that allows you to relax. So now i have to figure out how i'm im going to help you with this. Any idea?