The Fear of Alcoholism in a Relationship

I knew David wouldn't make old bones, rationally I say that. But emotionally and practically we've made plans for our future. So there was a version of our life together that was not one that acknowledged the likelihood of him not being around to live it. He died of chronic decompensated alcoholic liver disease which is the alcoholics frequent cause of death. Do you look back now and see yourself as a carer and how were you coping with that sort of life? I don't know how I did it. There were periods when David's drinking was so destructive, so destructive, and destructive of other stuff too. And he couldn't stop because he was in the grip of an