The End of Something

She talks about loving to be alive. And then once she's really sick and goes into this very high fever and a delirium, a kind of dreamlike unconscious state,. She doesn't so give up as embrace what's coming, which for her, appears to be the beauty of what comes after life. This is the beginning of the end of something. Something terrible is going to happen to me. I'll will it to chuck. He has a venerable father to buy hooch for. Oh, adam. I hope i see you once more before i go under with whatever is the matter with me....