How Do You Get Into Spirituality to Numb Yourself?

"I almost have like zero goals and I just kind of go with things," he says. "It's not that I don't dislike goals, but my goals tend to happen when there's a problem in front of me." He started meditating to stop feeling things; it worked for three years before life became too boring. But then the numbness got so bad you didn't care about anything anymore.