Do You Think It Was Her First Language?

i think that there is so much that is lost in the fact that i cannot speak antonys. My mam, she was fluent in english, and my dad too. And it just shows the distance to not be able to know that language. I want to be fluent, and i want to say that one day i will be. But there are so many gaps in the the language that we use,. The slang we use across generations, even.