Is He Really a Content Creator?

I definitely have phases where while I was in a relationship, like I would fan girl over some K-pop guys, but I don't think I would ever go to the extent of like buying subscription. And is it just to like this one specific content creator? Oh, that's really tough. Like how much money is this guy sending, you know, like proportionate his income? And do I feel like he pays enough attention to me? Am I satisfied and fulfilled in the relationship? And this is just a small detail or is it like actively causing harm? Another thing is like, how long term is this, you know?"