The Desperation of a Christian Family

Both of my parents had Jesus freak, like Jesus hippie experiences in the 70s. I did go to a method of school until about fourth grade where we read the Bible. And then in sixth grade, I was getting in trouble and Tony Ramos was just a sixth grader in love with Jesus. And he started telling me about his church. Then in seventh grade, I I was alone in my room and I was listening to some rap music that I had removed the sticker and put it over the explicit lyrics tab so that my mom would buy it. So I got this overwhelming sense of despair, gloom, and felt God reaching to me and say, you should go to church.