What Do You Do When Your Petty Self and Your Mature Self Are in a Tight of War Match Over Your Decision Making?

What do you do when your familiar place an a unknown place that god is calling you to? They are in a tug of war match over your decision making. We end up projecting ourselves on god. If i was god, i wouldn't listen to me because of what i've done. So don't go back to pharoh. I want to take you over into your promise.