The Divisiveness of Consciousness

The divisiveness within consciousness is avoidance inside of consciousness. It's some tendency in consciousness to believe we can turn away from experience. And the only way you can do is to feel realistic, full on the sense fields. The core of it is this sense of this illusory sense of agency that like I can pull back enough to start to regroup and think about what I want to do here,. But it feels like you can right?