When you have kids it all kind of just comes crashing down reality, right? You realize that maybe the things that you've valued up to then are not going to carry you through once you have kids. Just went deeper and deeper and found that it was making my life a lot better. Wasn't immediately obvious that stoicism was the answer or did you? No, that came many years later. I think I'll show up and say wait I guess I'm the drama. That's what I'll figure out.