"The act of turning to put the paintbrush down brought me, I saw my sister and she had been the only person in all of those months that I could talk to you about the things that I was thinking," he says. "She was the only person who would say, you know maybe yeah you're right that doesn't make sense That kind of thing just kind of outsourcing any, any critical thought." He adds: "I didn't believe it, I just felt they had repeatedly done all these things to lose my trust'