The Importance of Self-Doubt

There's this idea of maybe self-punishment or you know self-bloodgeoning at least metaphorically and sometimes physically for an infpi. There's a sense that you're not allowed to experience that darkness so instead of experiencing them they'll be physically punishing on themselves just to get some relief from those strong emotions. It takes about eight minutes for the intensity to go away but if you stop it anywhere up to let's say it wants to go to ten then it gets caught in a loop and it won't go awaysometimes it'll not feel as strong but it'll always be there. i'm gonna hold space for the darkness i'm gonna allow myself to just feel it i'm not