How to Make Sense of the Present When There Are So Many Empty Spaces in the Past

Your father passed away this morning. The order two last minute graduation season is one of the busiest times for the cadaver drones. How do you make sense of the present when there are so many empty spaces in the past? We just held my father's funeral two weeks earlier. His body was still in the ice room and I'd been too afraid to ask my mother why we had not buried him yet. It turned off the faucet my hands does slippery with soap suds.