Navigating Trust and Trauma

This chapter explores the delicate balance of trust and unpredictability in the criminal underworld, with personal anecdotes illustrating complex relationships and the emotional toll of past experiences. The author reflects on their return to Belfast, grappling with reintegration challenges, strained friendships, and the haunting memories of violence while seeking emotional healing through writing. Additionally, the chapter highlights the author's journey in literature, detailing the impact of their controversial works on their career amidst contrasting support from their homeland.