How to Be More Confident With Yourself in Relationships

I think it's like maybe a lack of self confidence is seeing them as like a vehicle for me to get better. Like I even like with female friendships, I definitely feel more comfortable and with my friend. But the way I think of liberating myself maybe isn't through myself being better. It's like attaching myself into this more powerful being and then them doing it. How they see you, you only, you only become better and improved until once that person has confirmed it through their love for you,. "It's really interesting watching in real time"