Having a Diagnosis of a Life-Threatening Disease

I think what i've learned through this experience is that there's such a degree of homeostasis in the human mind that your problems are your problems. That means that when something is bothering you, whether it's a life threatening thing or a very minor thing, it still kind of occupies the full band with so it doesn't annoy you when you hear people talking about more everyday problems. My best friends biggest toughest decision he's working with right nowis which blue apron item to cook to night. And and i'm thinking about, should i do the surgery after cycle four or after cycle fiveand how will that effect my, my surviv and an recovery, and everything like that. But