What Can I Do When My Heart Is Resisting?

He says, when i muster a longing that god would come and meet me, i find my heart unwilling to welcome god. Seems afraid of meeting god. It does not want to be with god. On the other hand, my heart opposes that. Such chaos inside. So this is clearly a divided heart. None of us has a consistently united heart in longing for god. We we plead with god to take our hearts in his hands and incline them toward his word. I o open. Psalm one 19 18, open my eyes that i may behold wonderful things out of your instruction.