Being Smart Is Mostly About Listening

High school student tat wants to be a good and smart person but feels like everyone just wants to see me as a try hard. How do i get over my fear of being hated by other people for doing the things i love? And how do i know if i'm being pretentious or a know, at all? Im afraid that people see me as the people i find annoying, and they do too. Comes from tat who writes, dear john and hank, i really want to be agood and smart person. I study hard, make sure i'm up to date on the news, look at things from multiple points of view and try to do the best that will benefit