You're Feeling Pain Because You Need to Have That Connection With Your Son

You're you're feeling pain because you need to, because you need a connection with your son. But the demand of myself to do it, feeling i should. What kind of a father am i that inner pain created by my inner jack is so great that i can't. I don't, can't act on my mean to be with myson. That's allso that's also inon. Yes, one way i can do it is by getting this land and making money and leaving a legacy. The other stuff, about not giving for the medical expenses now, not meeting with him, that's the stuff i'm talking about. Now, what's behind that?