You were doing great. Everything was rational, until that unlovable sum scar popped up and said you were not worth their time. The question that you need to ask yourself is, what does it feel like to not be a priority for them? And i don't want that to change my action. I actually don't want to try to protect myself from that hurt,. Because that's one option, right? I'm never going to tex them again, fuckit. Like, don't do anything. Just sit. Notice those feelings of rejection, and just sit with them for a while. And it's going to feel bad. It's like, you ever cleaned out a garbage disposal?