How Have the Years Been Tracing You, and How Have You Changed?

When i was younger, so from the age of perhaps forty, 15, 16, i would watch a sporting tournament and say that one day, er in my dreams, i become this player. And these dreams continued. But increasingly, and perhaps the covert thing is ging o can this, at least for me, i can't dream of doing these things in the future. I need to do it now. This, i think, is where a, at least my mind, a start o chan in forty X. And that forty x is closer to 50 than it is to 40. According to my kids, at the time i reach 50, i would have lived half my life