meditation undoes the sense of self himself. We know we can't be at home in the ego, cause it's not the truth of who we are. So s some real longing to go ahead and open to what feels edgy. The montra that i use most often is, yes, thank you. But actually, this like absurd. Like, if you're dying, imagine greeting that with thank you. I can't. Bet some high level stuff isn't that absurd?
Tara Brach (Buddist teacher! Author! Trusting the Gold! Radical Compassion!) makes it weird!