My legs are amputated above the knees Your pelvis is shattered. You have a external fixator contraption sticking out of you. It's really tough to process and just think about You do have no idea at that point or did you you said you had to let that suspicion sink in but I didn't know for a fact. And then yeah this fever this inexplicable fever we thought it was infection But it wasn't infection, but he just had this burning fever. Nightmares delirium all centered around Afghanistan My last memories were one where my platoon called me a coward for being on a foot patrol Getting dismembered by some kind of rack machineI mean just awful stuff.