The Fear of Being in Trouble With Someone

i was a very bold and outgoing person, but also, like terrified of being in trouble. And i realized last night it's ecause i was always in trouble as e kid,. Like constantly getting my pone taken away, not being allowed to go out, not being alowed to do this. So if my mother found out that i went there, she would have shit herself yey. That place was fanill terrifying. I actually, i think i've only gone once, and that planit beni ocas it its because the mother who interrupted our time like put the fear of god in me.