Another thing that happened today this is just honestly it's just been the perfect morning really really. I was walking in the street this morning it was a nice day it was sunny. Oh great I was just wearing a little jacket you know it's that type of weather where it's like 20 degrees in the morning you can wear a jacket I was listening to my music it was great I was having a great time and then a bird literally pooed on my face and you know the funny thing is I mean there's just no other way to say I just have to come out and say it and the funny thing is is that the other day I was talking to someone about it and I don't know why but I was like oh yeah I've birds never pooed on me like imagine imagine what that would be like oh well now I can imagine the only benefit was that it didn't go anywhere near my mouth and also I wasn't going to do anything important or my hair it just kind of fell on my forehead on my nose I mean really really not a good way to start the boarding it was really embarrassing as well because there are people looking at me and like at the beginning I didn't really even know what happened it was like a shock so I was like wait what and then I kind of put my head my fingers on my head and I was like are you actually joking like really are you joking has that ever happened to you I mean now I feel like I have to carry everywhere unfortunately I didn't have a packet of tissues but now I will be carrying a packet of tissues constantly in my bag along with some kind of like cleaning thing I managed to get it off with I mean it could have been worse it could have been worse thankfully it wasn't that much but yet not a great way to start the day I guess maybe that's maybe put me in a bit of a anxious mood so yeah I just thought I'd share that because you know these things I'm always talking about things that don't go to plan right and that was definitely something that wasn't on my agenda this morning and then after that I've been doing and I'm going to be really honest one thing that's really hard for me and we all have our own things right and this does relate back to confidence I find it really hard and I've mentioned this before about pictures and I really don't like you know taking pictures or having pictures of me I just don't like it and I find it really hard to be in front of a camera and film things for social media I find it really really hard it's a real struggle for me and I'm going to be really open and honest about that because I think it's important to share these things it's really hard for me quite frankly I hate it and I'm but I'm trying to work on it because I know that it's important and I want to be able to reach more people and to do that I need to you know put myself out there and and change my mindset around it but it's really hard so what I've been doing is I've been going to a coach to help me with my communication that side of things I guess maybe it's not communication but well it is really and today we were doing he was like okay today we're going to do the absolute worst thing the thing that you hate the most he's like I'm going to make you really really uncomfortable so that when you have to do this in real life it's going to feel easy and I was like yeah okay that is so that's so great this is just after the bird poo incident so I was like okay great so I've got a bird poo on my head and now I'm going to have to do something really uncomfortable great fantastic this is also pre-coffee as well because I left in a bit of a rush and I hadn't had a coffee yet so you know you know that feeling when you haven't had a coffee and you're just like everything just feels a little bit