Tetris: The First Great Distraction of My Life

Tetris was the first great distraction of my life. I don't know if i'm alone in this regard, but i have this constant and gnawing pain that i'm always trying to distract myself from feeling. For me at least, there's a terrifying depravity to meaninglessness,. It calls into question not only why i write and read and garden and eat and love and everything else, but also whether i should even bother. When that background pain overwhelms me, i can't do the work of finding and building meaning in my life. Like i hear good things about meditating until you achieve enlightenment, but in my particular case, there's no way i'd survive it