What Is the Makings of a Sesmic Artist?

I always felt that i was looking for something, wanting to press something. Now i would, i would call it beauty. I don't think i conceptualized it to myself in those terms at the time. There was always this elusive and yet unformulated goal towards which i felt  that i was approaching,. or always failing to a greater or lesser extent. And so there wasAlways this feeling, soon as i'di had worked for two or three months, had had a firing, looked at the pots, soon as they were out, i lost interest in them. So there was always, i always knew at least what the next step was. And all i needed to know