How Old Are You When You Lose Your Faith?

I lost my faith when I was almost 19 it was like a accumulation of things so like as a Christian I was had been exposed to a lot of debates. Like people and Reddit saying when they're trying to be mad at Christians super familiar with all the arguments. After I lost my faith and moved out of the house I started being consumed with absolute rage towards him and hatred. He showed up at my place of work and I just like had a flashback breakdown like I like bolted like hit under a table and like sobbed until my coworkers found me. Oh my god I feel like I would just have pure hatred after that experiencelike but you had this idea that like somehow he was carrying out