i agree that it's not only meant's the relationship with control is really weird, right? Because even with the it's like that rush. And i don't think i focus as much on the times when there isn't a problem aso i do. I could point out to you rich half a dozen moments where you weren't thriving through chaos, and you were still an awesome best self, right? Like we've heard them. Are not,. You know, especially if you look to things like your family and stuff like those. But i still think you're, you're your best self with them. It's something you've got to decide whether you want to start to see.