The Reality of Reality Hits

Janae: I think early on, I just still wanted to. And now I'm at a place where I'm like, what is life? What is this? Why is this like? Like the adjust the the newness of it hid some of the badness of it. Now it's just the reality of reality is hitting. It's insane. Even though I need it, I need like some sort of outlet and way to perform.