I Don't Know What I'm Doing, but if I Do It and Eff It Up, What the Hell Am I?

I was walking around for someone to recognize my genius and throw money at me. And so, but it just wasn't happening. I had this kind of note that I'm going to write it. But if I do it and eff it up, then what the hell am I? Yeah. It's anger over fear. My first credit was a movie. And then I wrote that got sold. You know, I got a nice paycheck for it. They cast people from India that my parents knew. Oh, he was in that movie and he was in this and one. And it was magnificent.