I Had Nightmares All the Time.

I have a fairly strong proclivity towards depression, which i think is an auto mune illness in my case. I was quite convinced that we weren't going to live to see our thirties. You began to read excessively after the holocost about terrible things, worst things that have happened. So i don't know, if you combine a bit of a dark side with voracious curiosity, you get obsession with with tyranny and malevolence,. But the curiosity, i think, apart from the darkness, i mean, i was oriented towards finding the biggest problem i could conceptualize to try to solve it.